July 11, 2014
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Just Trying
A few updates:
Dad and I have started looking (again) for houses. Living in Waco would make my life a lot easier and more fulfilling. I lose at least an hour a day just driving to and from the house, not to mention the cost in gas.
This coming week is the last week for the ACE Summer Program. We have a field trip tomorrow and a parent showcase Thursday. After that, it'll just be paperwork I have to deal with. Lots of emotions there. I'm going to miss the kids and my staff, and probably even the job a little bit.
Still intermittent contact with Rae, which I see as a good thing. I get a Snapchat every once in a while. Some I know are probably sent as a mass message, but some have been just to me. Emotionally, it's been a little bit like my "daily bread." It could mean nothing, but it's something. I'm still working on what I'm going to say to her as far as asking her to reconsider the possibility of a relationship with me. I have (pretty much) decided I'm going to communicate that with her either August 8th or 9th. That's a little earlier than I originally anticipated, but I have my reasons. First, poetically, that would be three months since our break up. We first started talking around January 9th, begin dating about a month later, broke up May 9th. Secondly, practically, I want to have my heart feel free before I go back to seminary. Up to this point, I haven't pursued or even perused any other options. If we decide to try to be more than we are now, I'll be free to think on that. If Rae shuts me down, it'll hurt, and I want a couple of weeks just to let it soak in.
Physically, I've been up and down. July 4th week was bad in the sense of my workout routine. I went to a young adult service Tuesday, life group Wednesday, our small group Thursday, the 4th on Friday... I between work and those events, I didn't work out at all. I've also noticed that my physique has pretty much plateaued. I'm just trying to work out regularly instead of being driven to get better, to improve, to get stronger and faster. I can run 3 miles, burn calories, and sweat. I even save my times, but they are more for just general accounting than benchmarks I need to meet and exceed. I've been eating less and more healthy (most of the time), but again, there's a difference in just eating less or forgoing a meal when I've splurged and having a consistent, complete, compact diet plan. I've been "living" better, but it's success or failure is the result of immediate will power instead of intentional planning. I need to fix that.
School starts in a little over a month. Craziness.
Church life has been good. I'm still meeting new people and making relationships. Our life group is big, so it's hard to get to know everyone. Still, I'm seeing more and more people I recognize in worship on Sundays, which is cool.
That is all.
