Most of the time, I try to subtly hide my titles in my blog somewhere.  I'm be a little more direct on this one

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Location Change:
I want to live to Waco.  Dad has bought a lot, but the city said we couldn't build on it for 4-6 months.  We don't know why, so we are calling them Monday.  If we don't build my uncle has offered his nephews some money to invest in flipping something.  It's funny how I've always said I wanted to own rental property, and now it seems like I may have the opportunity to do that.  I need to open up my mind a little on that one, but it's out there.

Car Change:
If I end up not moving to Waco, it seems like getting a more fuel efficient car is a good move for me to make right now.  My car gets bad gas mileage, costs more to insure, and because it's a special car, it costs more to fix when things go wrong.  Even if I do move to Waco, it seems like getting something more practical is the right thing to do.  However, I still don't have the title in my hands, so I have to call the bank Monday to figure out where it is.

Job Change:
My job as ACE Site Coordinator came to an end last week.  It was strange and a little sad to turn everything in.  It was also a relief though.  The job was stressful for so many reasons, and while I feel like I did a decent job, it just wasn't a good situation all around.  It's ending has allowed me a new beginning, and I'm thankful for that.  All that to say, I'm trying to fill my non-school schedule with a job or jobs.  I've got some leads on a couple things, one being officiating, but I can't call to follow up on those until Monday.

Heart Change:
This one has been happening over the last 3 months, but I really feel like I'm in a better place as far as my relationship with God goes.  Not only that, but I have some support around me now in my Lifegroup that I didn't have 3 months ago.  I think my focus on seminary, and my effort to be the best minister I can be has moved to the forefront of my life instead of...other things or people.  All that to say, I have been thinking and praying about talking to Rae this next weekend about giving "us" another go.  Not that we would jump back into dating or just pick up where we left off, but that our friendship would be more intentional than it is.  The weight of that: initiating that call/email, communicating my heart with her, waiting for her response, the change that will happen in my life whatever the response...  It's heavy, and it's stressful, and Satan is using that to his advantage.  I hate transition, and it's so easy for me to get lost during it, but if I've learned anything over the last year or so, it's that obedience and trust will carry you through even that craziest of circumstances.

It's been 3 months since our break up.  We've had some silly conversations and some serious ones since then.  There's been cause for me to think there's still something there and things that have made me wonder.  I'm curious to what her response will be.  I'm hopeful, but I'm nervous and impatient.  That conversation will cap off a week of change with a bang.

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A few updates:

Dad and I have started looking (again) for houses.  Living in Waco would make my life a lot easier and more fulfilling.  I lose at least an hour a day just driving to and from the house, not to mention the cost in gas.

This coming week is the last week for the ACE Summer Program.  We have a field trip tomorrow and a parent showcase Thursday.  After that, it'll just be paperwork I have to deal with.  Lots of emotions there.  I'm going to miss the kids and my staff, and probably even the job a little bit.

Still intermittent contact with Rae, which I see as a good thing.  I get a Snapchat every once in a while.  Some I know are probably sent as a mass message, but some have been just to me.  Emotionally, it's been a little bit like my "daily bread."  It could mean nothing, but it's something.  I'm still working on what I'm going to say to her as far as asking her to reconsider the possibility of a relationship with me.  I have (pretty much) decided I'm going to communicate that with her either August 8th or 9th.  That's a little earlier than I originally anticipated, but I have my reasons.  First, poetically, that would be three months since our break up.  We first started talking around January 9th, begin dating about a month later, broke up May 9th.  Secondly, practically, I want to have my heart feel free before I go back to seminary.  Up to this point, I haven't pursued or even perused any other options.  If we decide to try to be more than we are now, I'll be free to think on that.  If Rae shuts me down, it'll hurt, and I want a couple of weeks just to let it soak in.

Physically, I've been up and down.  July 4th week was bad in the sense of my workout routine.  I went to a young adult service Tuesday, life group Wednesday, our small group Thursday, the 4th on Friday...  I between work and those events, I didn't work out at all.  I've also noticed that my physique has pretty much plateaued.  I'm just trying to work out regularly instead of being driven to get better, to improve, to get stronger and faster.  I can run 3 miles, burn calories, and sweat.  I even save my times, but they are more for just general accounting than benchmarks I need to meet and exceed.  I've been eating less and more healthy (most of the time), but again, there's a difference in just eating less or forgoing a meal when I've splurged and having a consistent, complete, compact diet plan.  I've been "living" better, but it's success or failure is the result of immediate will power instead of intentional planning.  I need to fix that.

School starts in a little over a month.  Craziness.

Church life has been good.  I'm still meeting new people and making relationships.  Our life group is big, so it's hard to get to know everyone.  Still, I'm seeing more and more people I recognize in worship on Sundays, which is cool.

That is all.