May 26, 2014
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Crazy Love
I hope you're as impressed with my title as I am...
While it might imply something else entirely, "Crazy Love" is a book by Francis Chan that Rae and I decided to read together. I wanted to get back in the habit of reading, and Rae said it was hard for her to finish books, so a joint venture made sense. We've been going through it chapter by chapter, discussing it over the phone every other day or so. That's made our communication much more regular than I anticipated. It's not a bad thing, just something I didn't expect.
We hung out together on Saturday. It was the first time I'd seen her in almost a month. I fully expected to be overcome with emotion when I saw her, but that didn't happen. There was certainly an awkwardness to it, but I expected that. We went hiking on a trail in Austin that I'd never been on. The weather was overcast and a bit muggy, but otherwise nice. The trail followed Barton Creek, and after about an hour, we made a stop by the edge of the water to eat lunch. Lunch was an MRE I'd bought just before getting to the trail. She had never had one before, so I thought it'd be a fun way to have a warm meal off the beaten path. All in all, it was fun. We got there around 11:30 and left around 3:00, so we spent the better part of 4 hours enjoying nature and each others company.
Obviously, the dynamic between us is different in that we are just friends now, but I do feel like I'm seeing a bit of a different side of her than I did while we were dating. I'm not sure exactly how to describe it as I can't quite put my finger on it. Maybe more raw, more vulnerable, more relaxed, more free...? I don't know. I might be way off and completely inaccurate, but that's how I feel.
It's Memorial Day today. I'm off today, but I'll have two weeks to get ready for summer program. Rae finishes up with school this week, but she will be going to the beach with her youth group over the next couple of weeks. I really don't know how this summer will go between us. I'm not sure if anything will happen or not. I'm hopeful that something will, but my main focus is getting ready for Truett this Fall. I'm trusting that God will provide for me in whatever way that is whether that's through this friendship, through my enrollment at Truett, my involvement on campus or at Antioch, or randomly some other way.
