October 13, 2010

• Moment

  It's so good when God answers prayers.  It's so good.

  Monday night was our weekly small group meeting, and this was the first week that we "opened it up" to everyone at theDoor.  The room was filled with people, about 17 in all, and it was just good to see the potential for more small groups being formed.  I would take time to talk about how the meeting went, but this post isn't about that.  The "Beacon" house is only a few houses down from where our small group meeting was, so we walked down there to talk away from everyone else.  Though our day had started off great, it appeared like this was other day that might be mixed as far as emotions go.  I drove away feeling defeated once again by myself and by forces that just seemed to be ever present in our relationship. 

  As I got ready for bed, Kaylin called me and just started talking.  Her demeanor seemed like it had changed a bit, and her attitude seems more upbeat.  I could tell she was driving, but i couldn't tell where.  When she asked me if she could call me back, I thought that she was probably headed home, which is always a good feeling for me.  Sure enough, moments later she walked in the door of my room and sat on my bed.  She looked happy...cheery...joyful.  We spend a few minutes discussing how the small group went.  We talked about the bigger issues of group dynamics and about other "big" things.  It was just so good to feel like we were on the same page and talking about big, kingdom type things. 

  Before too long, the conversation moved toward our relationship, and she really did most of the talking.  I was I had a tape recorder!  It was so good.  She talked about the issues we were having in a spiritual context.  The talked about things she needed to change and understand.  She talked about ways that God was working in her.  ...  Aside from just general understand, the way she was talking, the passion in her voice, her tone...all were just...intoxicating.  She kept asking me to say something, and I couldn't.  I was just speechless.  I told her I agreed with everything she was saying and thinking.  I even joked and asked her if she was taking drugs or something.  No.  No drugs, just God working on our hearts and minds.  It was a wild ending to an up then down then very up day.  I just kept thinking in my head that I wished every day was like this.  Not so much the euphoria of it all (that too), but just the being on the same page, the union of our thoughts and energies on a particular topic or issue.  It's not secret that life was been difficult, so that unity was worth much. 

  I'm sure there will be things that challenge the peace of that moment.  There will be things that happen internally and externally that will threaten the unity of our hearts and minds.  There will be times where the joy of that moment will seem to fade into the background, make it seem like a dream, but...  Those things are not greater than my God.  Those things are not greater than my love for Kaylin, my desire for us to continue to grow together as a couple, and my yearning to see God work in us, both individually and as a couple, in mighty ways.

  ...

  In other news,

  I watched the Rangers make playoff and franchise history last night.  They won their first playoff series ever and were the first team to win all three road games. 

  My bumper still isn't fixed.  I'm thinking I may just have to purchase parts and install them myself.  Waiting to find a salvage car is...not fun. 

  Still no word from the Police Department.  If I hear back from them by Halloween, then I'll be happy. 

  I've needed to get back into a workout routine.  It's hard to balance relationship building, walk-with-God building, and ...body... building, but balance is key. 

  I'm going to be in Israel for Christmas. 

   

  Fin.

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